My thoughts in my World have gone through a drastic change in the past few days. I feel rejuvenated and fresh. I feel confident and strong. I live life by my own terms. I do what I like; I eat what I like; I read what I like; I wear what I like. I believe in myself more than ever before. When I was reflecting on the reason behind the whole change I realized it was certainly because of all that I do in my organized life off late. I study English Literature and the amount of learning one gets through it is incredible. Literature has come in my life as a welcome gift. The gift I would treasure all my life. This gift is made all the more beautiful by my teacher at the University. She makes the subject all the more interesting and lively. I can now feel my hunger for knowledge. Literature is the best thing that could ever happen to a person like me. I live on random thoughts that strike me. I’m not a person with 150-160 IQ level. I’m any normal person who loves what she does and has many plans to do what she loves. I eat well. I sleep very well. I listen to songs of all kinds. I’m a girl of good taste. I like making sense of almost nothing and I love myself. Isn’t life all about loving oneself and making peace with self. Harmony with self is a topic for another day. I’m not a very out-going person. I, in fact, hate parties. I find parties too absurd. I find dancing in parties even more absurd. I’m spiritual in a sense. I like being for myself. I enjoy every moment. I find talking to people of my same age unnecessary. Yes, there’s a lot to learn from my friends but I still don’t like doing it. But I’m fine with all that. I’m just happy that I have no immediate neighbours. I’m happy that my parents don’t demand an answer to all my actions. Honestly, my parents are the only people I care for. I’m accountable to them and no one else. I’m selfish to a certain extent. Well, to a large extent. But then, is it wrong? I don’t think it is because I’m not cunningly selfish. Literature seems to have changed the way I think and the way I conduct myself. It’s a positive change. My attitude towards life is more constructive unlike before when I used to criticize myself thinking that’s the best way to go forward. I know that poets were no social reformers. But they have certainly reformed me. A much needed transformation has finally happened at the age of 18. I can almost feel the positive vibes within me. I feel strong! The hunger for knowledge is here to stay!
