Knowledge, humility and some cockiness

I often feel intimidated thinking of how much I ought to know in comparison to how little I know. People around me are experts in their own fields. I’m talking of 18-20 year olds, mind you. The command they have in their turf is commendable. There have been times when I have looked at all of them with such great awe. Even in a small group, I feel as though I'm miles behind. When I look at the whole world, I feel like a speck of dust – so little and insignificant...

In my peer group, as I see it, the bigheads try to put me down. True, I know so less about fashion, technology, sciences, math, literature; and they are sure to beat me in their backyard. I agree I’m a master of none. I sure want to learn the ways of the world. Ages ago I used to feel inferior, not any more. My luck, I take the other quite lightly and tend to look for humour in each person's busy doings (mine included); and there’s very little for me to worry about. But there is an aura about those smart alecks that is a bit turning off. At times, with knowledge comes the ‘I-know-it-all’ kind of an attitude – quite understandable that. When a person knows a particular subject in great depth, that person automatically begins to feel superior. But my dear reader, don't you think that there must also come humility with knowledge? Isn't it important to stay grounded? I have come across people who have actually told me that they know-it-all (using the exact same phrase). That's what made me think. Can knowledge be called knowledge when there's so much pride attached? Even the Tao Te Ching stresses on knowledge being gained with humility.

I found this beautiful and inspiring quote by Guruji that put tears in my eyes. Have a read.

"Knowledge is a burden

if it robs you of innocence.

Knowledge is a burden

if it is not integrated into life.

Knowledge is a burden

if it doesn't bring joy.

Knowledge is a burden

if it gives you an idea that you are wise.

Knowledge is a burden

if it doesn't set you free.

Knowledge is a burden

if it makes you feel you are special."

- Sri Sri Ravi Shankar Guruji

reflections

Today, I was told by a friend that I look beautiful and lively.

Today, I was told by another friend that I look weak and dull.

Now you tell me dear readers - whom do I believe? Should I believe in anything at all?

As mentioned earlier in this blog, nothing is to be taken seriously - whether it's criticism or compliment.

Today, I could clearly see how the 'conditioned' world tries to trick us into all the trivialities and had a little laugh about it.

Today, my friends, I realized how caught up we are in this trivial world.

Today, I got to know what it takes to rise above all that.

Today, I'm happy for I know I can control my mind from running haywire.

Today, I realized how powerful I am.

It's time we all realized our POWER!!

Also, remember: with great power comes great responsibility!!

My Dear One!

"To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance"

- Oscar Wilde

I absolutely love the way things are going for me right now. I attend one of the best colleges in the country. I have taken up the course I like. I get to learn so many new things every day. My daily routine which was boring and tedious, now seems full of life. I leave my house at 7-7.30. I travel by bus. I change 3 buses and walk a bit to get to college. So, that way at least I exercise. I go to college and shoot videos, record in the studio, learn technical stuff, write scripts, enjoy my literature and psychology classes, have discussions with my friends, read books. Can it get any better? :)

If there's no work in the evening, I come back home at around 6.30. I have my cup of tea. I talk to my parents and start working on my presentations for the next day. I listen to music. I sit down and relax and get into meditation mode with soothing music in the background. Yes, more work would mean late nights and early mornings. But I'm not complaining for this is all I wanted. Everything seems to be just perfect. I actually feel like a professional working so much :D

To be honest, my schedule has more or less been the same since last year. But I have never said that I like what I do. I always kept whining about all my assignments and travel and just about everything. Now, I know something has changed. I know not what. Is it just the fact that I believe that I enjoy doing what I do? I don't know. At the end of the day, we are what we choose to be. I'm absolutely grateful for everything God (or call it some sort of Divine energy) has given me and is giving me without a single pause. I'm grateful to all the people that God has sent me for help, guidance and assistance. I'm truly happy the way I am. I am my dearest!! I know I'm here to spread Love and Light. I know I'm here to bloom. We all are!! =)