Knowledge, humility and some cockiness

I often feel intimidated thinking of how much I ought to know in comparison to how little I know. People around me are experts in their own fields. I’m talking of 18-20 year olds, mind you. The command they have in their turf is commendable. There have been times when I have looked at all of them with such great awe. Even in a small group, I feel as though I'm miles behind. When I look at the whole world, I feel like a speck of dust – so little and insignificant...

In my peer group, as I see it, the bigheads try to put me down. True, I know so less about fashion, technology, sciences, math, literature; and they are sure to beat me in their backyard. I agree I’m a master of none. I sure want to learn the ways of the world. Ages ago I used to feel inferior, not any more. My luck, I take the other quite lightly and tend to look for humour in each person's busy doings (mine included); and there’s very little for me to worry about. But there is an aura about those smart alecks that is a bit turning off. At times, with knowledge comes the ‘I-know-it-all’ kind of an attitude – quite understandable that. When a person knows a particular subject in great depth, that person automatically begins to feel superior. But my dear reader, don't you think that there must also come humility with knowledge? Isn't it important to stay grounded? I have come across people who have actually told me that they know-it-all (using the exact same phrase). That's what made me think. Can knowledge be called knowledge when there's so much pride attached? Even the Tao Te Ching stresses on knowledge being gained with humility.

I found this beautiful and inspiring quote by Guruji that put tears in my eyes. Have a read.

"Knowledge is a burden

if it robs you of innocence.

Knowledge is a burden

if it is not integrated into life.

Knowledge is a burden

if it doesn't bring joy.

Knowledge is a burden

if it gives you an idea that you are wise.

Knowledge is a burden

if it doesn't set you free.

Knowledge is a burden

if it makes you feel you are special."

- Sri Sri Ravi Shankar Guruji

reflections

Today, I was told by a friend that I look beautiful and lively.

Today, I was told by another friend that I look weak and dull.

Now you tell me dear readers - whom do I believe? Should I believe in anything at all?

As mentioned earlier in this blog, nothing is to be taken seriously - whether it's criticism or compliment.

Today, I could clearly see how the 'conditioned' world tries to trick us into all the trivialities and had a little laugh about it.

Today, my friends, I realized how caught up we are in this trivial world.

Today, I got to know what it takes to rise above all that.

Today, I'm happy for I know I can control my mind from running haywire.

Today, I realized how powerful I am.

It's time we all realized our POWER!!

Also, remember: with great power comes great responsibility!!

My Dear One!

"To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance"

- Oscar Wilde

I absolutely love the way things are going for me right now. I attend one of the best colleges in the country. I have taken up the course I like. I get to learn so many new things every day. My daily routine which was boring and tedious, now seems full of life. I leave my house at 7-7.30. I travel by bus. I change 3 buses and walk a bit to get to college. So, that way at least I exercise. I go to college and shoot videos, record in the studio, learn technical stuff, write scripts, enjoy my literature and psychology classes, have discussions with my friends, read books. Can it get any better? :)

If there's no work in the evening, I come back home at around 6.30. I have my cup of tea. I talk to my parents and start working on my presentations for the next day. I listen to music. I sit down and relax and get into meditation mode with soothing music in the background. Yes, more work would mean late nights and early mornings. But I'm not complaining for this is all I wanted. Everything seems to be just perfect. I actually feel like a professional working so much :D

To be honest, my schedule has more or less been the same since last year. But I have never said that I like what I do. I always kept whining about all my assignments and travel and just about everything. Now, I know something has changed. I know not what. Is it just the fact that I believe that I enjoy doing what I do? I don't know. At the end of the day, we are what we choose to be. I'm absolutely grateful for everything God (or call it some sort of Divine energy) has given me and is giving me without a single pause. I'm grateful to all the people that God has sent me for help, guidance and assistance. I'm truly happy the way I am. I am my dearest!! I know I'm here to spread Love and Light. I know I'm here to bloom. We all are!! =) 

(^_^)

As part of my course, I recently visited an Autistic center. There is little awareness about Autism which is a serious concern. I came across a documentary while researching for my presentation. Here's the link. It's beautifully filmed and a must watch!! =)

AUTISM IS A WORLD:

<http://video.yandex.ru/users/and4261/view/979/>

*confession, advice, relationships, prince, frogs, and cosmos!!*

^ so much for randomness!!

By now you must have all known me and also judged me. It's not hard to guess that I'm the last person to consult in matters of any kind of relationships. But I decided to write about it after having observed a lot of people I know. Stories and rumours reach me no matter how far I try to keep myself from the society.

I am not a relationships kind of a person because I guess I'm not very attached to the world. I understand I have a responsibility towards my parents. That's one relationship I don't want to get rid of. But I honestly don't mind leaving all of this and joining an ashram (which I eventually will). Though I got all excited and tried my hand in a (VERY) short-lived relationship, the lovey-dovey start had a horrendous end. well, not really. It was all quite smooth for me at least. I can't believe I'm being so open about it considering the possibility of my parents and relatives checking my blog. I guess I'm revealing it because nothing really cooked in my "relationship" :D I hardly speak about it but what I learnt after those 2-3 weeks is that I'm not the person who can actually be all mushy. I could clearly see that I was trying too hard. Yours truly thought she is doing her Under Graduation and hence is all grown up but she was wrong and how!! phew!! -- stop judging her okay? she's still all innocent and lovely!! Aaand very matured which you know, right? :)

What I see in most of the teenage relationships around me is that they all try too hard. I have heard people tell me directly that they are in a relationship because they want to "experience" it all. There are virtual relationships, long-distance relationships and what not!! :D I find some of them disgusting. okay, not them but what they do. They so desperately want to get into it. Oh Mooji said something really funny about this. He said: "If you are desperate looking for a prince, you'll end up kissing a lot of frogs." lol. seriously!! you need to have patience. Not every soul-mate can become your life long partner.

In a larger perspective, all life is connected. And we are related not only to one another but to the cosmos. So, don't bang your head if you don't have a partner. It's exactly what was planned for you. It's in your own highest good.

wabi sabi

WHY? Why do we think so much of the other? Why are our mannerisms in accordance to what others want? Why do we have/want to live up to other's expectations? Why do we put on masks? Why do we try to be someone else? Why do we want to be everyone but ourselves? Why? Why? Why? Why are we scared of being judged by the other?

Aristotle stated that the ordinary man regarded good life as a life of physical pleasure, wealth, or honor. But for the current century, as philosopher Robert G. Oslon rightly suggests, the term “honor” be substituted by “social approval”.

All we need to do is accept ourselves! We are all perfect as we are. Heard of Wabi Sabi? It means ‘the perfectly imperfect’. We are all perfectly imperfect!! - with all our flaws. We need to change nothing. We are all just what the doctor ordered. I would go to the extent of saying that the flaws and the problems and the mistakes are what complete us. The hamartia is what makes the protagonist a hero, right?

If someone calls you a loser, you don’t become one. The same way, if someone calls you Einstein or Mozart you don’t become one overnight. Because you are who you are – It’s sad that it sounds almost clichéd. [I have a thing or two to share about clichés which is for another day!]. We need not feel insecure in this world. The fact that we are born in this beautiful planet implies that we are in very safe hands. We don’t feel it because we don’t want to. We (in most cases) blindly believe what others say. The one who’s immune to criticism and fear of being judged alone can go one step ahead in the journey with this outside body. Stop trying desperately to convince the other. We are way beyond all these trivialities. We need to accept the way we are and enjoy the element of surprise each moment. There's a Zen saying: "Every moment is the first second of your life." If you are reading this post, it means that it's time for you to break away from all the labels in life and live each moment like it’s a new beginning. This reminds me of a Hindi song sung by Vikram Hazra (yaaay my fav!!). My Hindi being really bad, I copy-pasted my favourite lines from the song:

Maan apmaan hota kahan re

Ye to hai shabdon ki pakad

Bhale bure shabd tujhe hila de
Itna tu nahin hai kamzor

here’s the youtube link for that song:

<http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9frGc5beJPg>

Always remember that you are a complete, perfect, glowing diamond!!

Much love!!