something vanishing

While the world turns, we go on with our little lives and try to "make it large"

We all think that we are the center of every relationship that comes our way. We soon realise that we are but playing a small role in the lives of other people. We are what others think and say we are. We exist but only in relations.

Now I see why Ayn Rand condemns selflessness calling it false and pretentious. I second her! I think, being selfish is close to being healthy.

Selflessness is a mask that we all wear. We can grow tired of it sometime when we come face to face with truth. But most of us shy away from the Truth and convince ourselves to stay there, in that limited space, forever. Haven't you seen the happy faces with tired eyes all around you? I am tired of looking for the eye with the spark in the mirror. I do not want to trust my own reflection! I often shout at it, "you are a liar!". It shouts back at me, "YOU are a liar".

Each one of us have a fantasized notion of oneself - a superhero like image! We think our ideas and actions will save the world. Tragic as it is, most of us fall short in trying to save ourselves let alone others. We always demanded a world of thinking and self righteous individuals, didnt we?

Here we are. We have built a generation on self-centered ideals and pretense.

Some of us will realise that this little ride is simply not worth the drama while some others will be tricked into the belief of achievement.

Our insignificance as a race echoes in my being; or should i say, MY insignificance as an individual echoes in my being!

There's got to be more than what appears to be true. There's got to be a deeper truth beyond pretense. There's got to be beauty in the world.