Thursday, December 26, 2013

The Birthday Post

Note to self: I should stop sounding clueless in all my blogposts. I'm 21 and ought to be more decisive and balanced. Alright.

Each birthday we sit and wonder, oh God! how fast time flies! So what have I done lately? What has changed in the last year? It hasn't been the mad and lovely chase for beauty in the little things anymore. I have broadened (?) my perspective and started looking at the big things as well. Parents and family. you know...that kind. I have lost the wisdom of a 20 year old. I can sense it. The job is getting to me. The eye for everything beautiful is giving way to idk what! My dad thinks I'll become a politician at work :P because I wanted to complain about someone not working. [WHAT has become of me! :D] My dad snapped at me saying, hello! mind your own business!
I should. I should. Thank God for parents! :)

Whatelse...ummm...let me think!

Joy drunk I should be. But I haven't read as much as I would have liked. I did graduate and get my first job and all the fancy things people brag about. But you know every happy story has too many buts attached... The coming year will be rid of the ifs and buts hopefully! And I'll get to read a lot and find a lot more time for myself.

We are constantly rediscovering ourselves. And I have learned that I don't really act until and unless I set challenges for myself. So here it is...

I shall try to be more truthful in my writing. I often feel...I think Allen Ginsberg (or was it my teacher?) said that we are hardly ever truthful in what we write. And if we ever write the truest of our feelings, people will never read it. Because it's so bitter and full of life. Maybe not. Maybe there are as many beautiful things to say as there are bitter stories that need to be shared. I want to be able to tell those stories while I intently listen to others. I want to cut the edge and say things that connect to ME in the first place! I want to be able to read it a decade later and say "hey I know that feeling!"

I shall read a minimum of 36 books in the coming year. I also have an MA programme to attend. And this job can get a li'l too tiring at times. So I hope I shall live upto my challenge.

I shall sit and sort every tag I have given to my posts. because there are way too many in the hiding. I shall do something about it and make my blog neat and searchable.

Hope my day and year will be one to remember. Now back to work i guess!

oh and I love my b'day dress. It's a combination of yellow and magenta sorts! :D

send in your wishes. I feel loved and don't mind some more of it! :) Mark the date. 27th Dec :D :)

ciao!

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

many hearty wishes on your birthday!
I wish from the bottom of heart, you read, digest and enjoy all the 36+ books you are going to read :) have a great year :)

Shruthi said...

Thanks a lot <3

Wannabe Studios said...

Yeah yeah, I should be saying 'better late than never', but I've decided not to. If it is of any consolation, Shruthi, I'll just say I thought you were much older, for some reason, from your G+ profile.

So, here's me saying happy birthday, late as ever! (What's one month in a lifetime, right?) Happy Birthday ;-)

Shruthi said...

ah! that's refreshing perhaps? :) thank you for the wishes :)